lilly in the rose garden

New Beginnings!

Posted on: August 10, 2011

I have a personal motto, and I feel that in the past few months I have not been living by it.

“Do something satisfying”

All summer I sat at the computer, wallowing in self-pity. I kept on yelling at myself for not having more friends, not having cooler clothes, not being better in general. I spent the whole time just telling myself these things over and over. Not even looking at Lolita related things could cheer me up, because I would begin to wonder why after I year I still only owned one dress.

Now with school starting soon, I realize that I didn’t fulfill my goals. I wanted to wear more skirts and blouses, rather than the boyish clothing I had been wearing the past few years. I wanted to sew some bloomers and a jsk. I wanted to re-invent myself completely, entering a school with a fresh, clean new start.

I didn’t fail completely. I mean, I did sew a sundress, just for practice. Some finishing touches, and it’s ready to wear! Isn’t that something to be proud of? Instead of becoming discouraged over a lack of clothes, I should remind myself of what I do have, like a great petticoat, a custom-made shorts patterns that’s perfect for bloomers, and parents that are willing to help me every step of the way.

Moaning, groaning, and avoiding the root of the problem won’t solve anything, so from here on out, I promise to work towards these goals.

-Sew at least one JSK

-Make a pair of bloomers (and not just some plain one. I want lace and bows and everything!)

-Master the art of applying makeup (I still have a horrible time trying to apply eyeliner, after three years of having it XD)

-Learn to style my hair more (it hangs half-way down to my waist, and all I do with it is pull it into ponytails! ugh)

-Reach out more! (I need friends — Lolita and otherwise — and the only way to fix that is to get out there and be more social)


As for this blog, I can’t promise much, sadly. School is going to suck up most of my time. I will post at least once every three weeks, though, even if said post is just a picture or two. I will do it! I am NOT going to let myself fall back into old patterns.

This year is going to be fabulous.

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