lilly in the rose garden

Posted on: August 27, 2012

The thing is, once you’ve had a taste of social interaction, that’s all you’ll want.

I used to be very good at being alone. I cut off contact with many people. I found new hobbies to occupy my time. I was actually pretty happy, once I got the hang of it. Until that point, however, I was miserable.

I became so used to it all that I started to believe I was an introvert. I found happiness in the strangest things. Tumblr, reading in bed, playing video games- always alone, though. My situation improved at school, and I made more friends. I was social at school, but I still loved my alone time at home.

I was busy all summer. I went on trips and tried new things and had lots of fun. I was mostly alone, still.

Now, after a week of school, I can’t handle being alone. I’m so desperate to talk to someone. I want to be in 3rd period photography right now, or walking downtown with the gang, or even sitting in the sun at a swim meet. I want it to be lunch period with an overcrowded table. I want to be anywhere except for alone at my desk.

I have forgotten how to enjoy solitude.

This vacation shouldn’t feel so painful.

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