lilly in the rose garden

Today I am wearing a mid-riff top.

This is the first one I’ve owned.

Now of course, in years past I played all the same tricks, rolling up the hems or picking stretchy materials that would ride up as I stretched, but this is the first time I’ve owned an honest to god shirt that doesn’t even skirt my belly button.

Now, that brings on a bit of anxiety. The first time I wore it, it was over my (first ever) bikini as a cover up, so any weirdness I felt was more that I was wearing a bikini. Now, I am pairing it with an old pair of gym shorts that digs into my hips a little. I don’t have a “””stomach””” but between the shorts and the hemline of the shirt, I can’t help but stare down and wonder if this is even a good idea, if I should change. My mom doesn’t care, she’ll let me wear it. But am I ready to do this??

I want to and I will. I’m going out for U-pick blueberries. I haven’t showered in a day and a half and my greasy greasy hair is in a high ponytail. No makeup, and with my hair pulled from my face, my glasses seem to dwarf my face. I look tired (got home late but it was so worth it) And, yknow, I don’t feel as ugly as society would like me to.

None of it matters. I can critique my body for hours on end, but I’m still gonna walk out of the house with my belly visible.

Speak your mind (or let the compliments flow. up2u ;3)

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matryoshkaRose~ (the former lillymelody)
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Hair growth progress- As of June 2015- I regularly trim my own bangs and they look amazing- choppy and short. The split ends have ruined lives and murdered small children. I haven't had a proper salon cut since July 2013. I might get a trim of 4ish inches by the end of the summer? I'm lazy.



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