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Posted on: January 1, 2016

Running full speed, delivering last year’s dead plants to this year’s forest….


Posted on: October 28, 2015

What a day! Rather busy but I’ve been in high spirits all day despite the rain and gloom.

Tonight I get to watch a screening of Kamikaze Girls. Yes, 11 years after its release, I’m giddy about filing into an auditorium to watch it in the company of my teachers and hopefully a friend or two. Naturally, I’m using a BTSSB shopping bag to carry my things. Not too conspicuous haha

It feels great mainly because I feel so knowledgeable. I was explaining parts of the movie and its cult status to my FILM prof! Like, wow. And that made me realize that I have achieved a lot over the years. I wore Lolita for five years, watched the movies and shows, read blogs and books on the subject (academic and not), run panels and shared my findings. Even now I continue to plunder the fashion section of the library, getting my paws on books about Gyaru and more. And I know enough to show off to an older adult…. Is this how adulthood feels?

I’ve got a great Halloween planned just as soon as I get my responsibilities out of the way. I have high hopes for the last three days of this month! I feel very safe and cherished at this point in time and its a great opportunity to show off my costuming skills.

In a new city, in a new home.

I have so much and yet so little to tell. I’m a work in progress, in a moment of intense fluctuation. And yet the smell of the breeze on the first day of October…it conjures up sense from four years ago. My desperation for something solid to hold onto, my hope for a better season. As transitory as this month is, I can wish for a renewal of my spirit, of what October means to me and what new ceremony this year will bring.

I want to tap into the creative voice of those past lives of mine without also grasping at the sorrow and loneliness that bore them. I need to always remember how far I’ve come and what potential I can draw from the world and my own life.

Does this all make me a tad homesick? Maybe, but I have to remind myself that nobody is still there. My precious library hasn’t hosted that volunteer group in years and its leader fired. The clubs I was a part of are under new regimes now, in an institution that is changing so rapidly I’d hardly recognize it. My peers have grown and left. And look at me! I’ve changed so much just within the last three months- would anyone recognize me?

I’ll never forget what home is, what it entails, the selected rosy highlights. I’ll try to forget the grim, dark memories. The rage and tears and fervor. I’ll preserve the lovely- fall fest over a decade ago, the choppy pavement of downtown, beach shops and trolley rides…

But here is home too, even after so little time. I’ve chosen to not return, top pledge myself to this new world and enjoy it to the fullest. If this is the “new” me, so be it. I can be proud of this, hopefully.

All I need is a soft bed, my sketchbook, and a few trustworthy friends, and I’ll make it out all right.

Posted on: June 21, 2015

hahahaha lmao im never gonna post about mega at this rate
I don’t feel like writing about Metro, which was equally AMAZING and FUN wow

Welcome to my latest post since friggen March

I had a bunch of cute fashion reviews to share, but I got so bogged down OTL
To be honest, I buried my nose in books and end of year busy work to prevent myself from thinking about the future. I got very shortsighted. My priorities have shifted so much thus far in 2015.

My world view is majorly messed up right now. I’m trying to pick up the pieces now that I’ve lost my main direction until the fall. I feel pretty lost. I’ve been in a bad place, but eons better than back in 2011, so there’s a victory!!

I’ve tried to steer the blog toward a more informative slant, since I have periodic bouts of paranoia about internet safety (HA HA) but some personal reflection would be good. I’m at a point where, for entertainment value and also because I hate myself, I’ve been pouring over relics of the past 7 years.

Posts to write:

– Clear Lipgloss review (NYC vs. NYX)

-A four year recap (versus regular Year in Review)

I wanted to do some “Favorites of the season” of shoes and various little tidbits I see in stores, but I keep forgetting to move them off my phone.

I COMPLETELY forgot to post about Mega 2015 which was AWESOME to the moon and back. I hardly took any photos, though….and now Metro is two weeks away <3 <3 welp

Posts I want to type out once I have a functioning computer

-Lipstick discussion: more NYX black lipstick
-winter 2013 vs 2014 gyaru trends
-I don’t really want to talk about Shadocon. It wasnt very good and I didnt take any photos since I didnt do very much once I arrived
-I don’t enjoy blogging anymore tbh. Photos on tumblr are much more interesting

I can’t be bothered to blog. I’m too busy.

matryoshkaRose~ (the former lillymelody)
cosplay, street fashion, reviews and more!
When in doubt, come into the rose garden ( ・ω・)ノ

2015 Convention Schedule

Who the heck knows.
Dragon Con

Ways to contact me

I got locked out of my lineplay u_______u
livejournal (matryoshkalilly)
Tumblr (matryoshkaRose OR newleafshibuya)

Hair growth progress- As of June 2015- I regularly trim my own bangs and they look amazing- choppy and short. The split ends have ruined lives and murdered small children. I haven't had a proper salon cut since July 2013. I might get a trim of 4ish inches by the end of the summer? I'm lazy.



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